Sunday, February 22, 2009

About the danger of man

Girls,

I just want to tell you to be careful. The people who are around you do not always have your best in mind. Sometimes it takes experiencing something scary to realize the condition of man.

We as human kinds live under a curse. But Jesus did come to redeem us from that curse. However, we are not all the same, but there are many who do not live under this redemption.

A fight for purity requires recognition of who you are first. To know that you deserve honor, respect, and that you are a daughter of the Most High and only God. When you realize that the love of Yhwh caused your creation, and that in his great love and desire for relationship with you he formed you, You will be so encouraged!

Because your life is of so much value, you need to guard it, becuase this world is full of enemies of God who desire to see the downfall of his people. But God so loved us that He sent his son to redeem us and bring us back to right relation with him, and the enemies of this world are unable to steal that from us.

I want you to know that the value of a pure heart costs ALOT. You will have to give up your earthly and fleshly desires to obtain it and have patience in all your relationships.

I have made many mistakes by trusting a man who was not interested in anything except for winning me. It took me many mistakes and years to realize that all these guys were really motivated in their heart by sex. They, perhaps, did not realize it themselves (just to give them the benefit of the doubt) but they showed me by their actions a lack of respect and an impatience which meant they only wanted one thing which I was by no means gonna give them.

Men can often be ruled by this insatiable desire to win a women, even if that means, kissing her or getting something from her and being the "first."

Women can be just as bad sometimes. They fight for the most "desirable" man and try to get his attention from things that they say.

I know that I am speaking very directly with you, but if you can realize that even a GOOD guy will fail and sometimes seek you for WRONG ReASONS you will be ahead of the game.

There is a women spoken of by a famous king, Solomon, who is worth more than RUBIES! What kind of woman does he talk about? Is it the one with the best skin? The one with the prettiest eyes or body? NO!!!!! He says that the woman who is worth more than rubies depended upon her CHARACTER! This specific one I am talking about is a women who is of a gentle and quiet spirit. He says that a "quarrelsome" women (one that likes to fight alot) is VERY STINKY. (joanna paraphrase)

So... all that to say. I am going to share a poem with you that I wrote. I was deceived a few times and the year was 2005. I trusted when I should have not given trust. There is great wisdom in this verse,
"Be wise as serpents, but innocent as doves." It is good to be innocent, ladies, but do not be unwise. Use your mind that God gave you and RUN from temptation.

I love you guys SO much and hope that you realize the respect you deserve and DEMAND it because you are not weak, but God has given you the authority necessary, and he has protected me, he will also protect you!!!!

These are very personal poems, but I share them for your benefit and so that you can learn from me. LOVE TO YOU! BE CAREFUL!

February 11, 2009

4 yrs have past
3 yrs, 9 months and 26 days to be exact.

It was one night, climactical
Not a night I cherish
Nor one I like to think upon
The effects this has on my future?
My biggest failure

Led to an almost identical experience
Almost 7 months later
WHY?
Truly a good question

God is gracious
Of this I'm sure
He led me to safety
From the devil's lure
The thing I treasured most
He tried to steal

I will not give up
Although his stealing hands
Try to grasp what is mine

My Father's love for me
Stills the anxiety
The pain and the loss
I take my cross

________________________

A Kiss

A kiss
Denied & Won thru deception

A touch
Not willingly given but taken by force

The force
Of his arms and hands

His warmth
My strength cannot compare

A trick
Older men and younger

Take away
And do not give worth

.... These poems are very sad, perhaps more so for me, because I lived them. YOU DON'T HAVE TO!!!!

Even though I lived these, I still came out strong and victorious because God protected me from the devil and what these men tried to steal they were UNABLE!!! THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!

They did steal my pride and dignity, but the grace of God helped me not to guard bitterness and also to realize that I still came out victorious because I said no in the face of temptation. And even though I did not get 100 percent on these tests of my strength and actually saw my weakness instead, it gave me a much greater appreciation and understanding of God's grace and love!!! He is so good and I love hiM!!!!

Girls, don't forget that the love of Jesus Christ for us is so much more beautiful than the false lust of an over eager boy. His love will lead us to that which is perfect and right if we WAIT!!!

LOTS OF HUGS! hope to hear from you!

Monday, February 9, 2009

A secret love

Just remember that there are no secrets before God. There was nothing hidden that will not be made known. :)

I have a secret.
There was this girl. Her name was _____________. you'll figure who. :) She always wanted to find love. She used to seek the love of her friends. She'd do her hair just a certain way to fit in with them.

She didn't have much money, but when she got to buy a new outfit, she always chose what would be most stylish, and proudly wore it every chance she could without it being "too often."

Then it happened.
One of her friends, with whom she always shared the most of her time and she loved her, suddenly started acting different to her. This friend stopped inviting her over to stay the night, and she noticed this friend was getting really close to another girl.
__________ felt sad. This girl didn't come to her house anymore. _________felt rejected.

Maybe you feel like you could fit in this this category. But I have a secret.


There is ONE who loves you more than you could imagine. He is the One and Only. He sent his son Jesus into the world as a human being. Jesus, although being in very nature God, left his position in the heavens and came to earth as a man. He made himself nothing. (Phillipians 2)

His love is the best kept secret of mankind. His awesome love breaks power of death, brings new life, heals from disease, restores brokenness. He gives all we need and promises to be with us always (Jsh 1:9)

May your love for him shine like the stars.

"What can mortal man do to you?" Trust in God! Psalms 56:4

Matthew 16:26 "What can a man give in exchange for his soul?"

Don't forget this promise: NO ONE can steal away from you the FATHER's LOVE

Knowing this has transformed my life.