My dear friends,
It has been some time since I have written you. I wanted to share with you something that has been on my journey right now.
God has been opening my eyes to a weakness that has stopped me from receiving the fullness of His presence.
A pure heart must be protected and guarded. If we are really doing everything possible to raise up a standard of purity, we must "pull out all the stops."
I am doing a new challenge. I must start somewhere, and I will keep you posted as to how it goes. Since I really desire to have a pure heart, and that God should be the receptor and the giver of love to fill my soul, then I need to prioritize my relationships.
Prioritizing our relationships is not always an easy thing. Time can be easily swallowed on chat programs on the computer, or friendships that feed something in us, ...
I recognize that I must choose to be intentional. I have had poor boundaries with time. I have not listened always to what is most important and actually given food for the fire of unhealthy or inconsistent relationships.
I'm so thankful that God is so patient and doesn't give up on my slow learning.
My best friend, (God), should be my first priority. My other best friends should be girls... unless of course I am going to marry some guy.
I guess that is just the way I see it. So, I have had a couple of guy friends who I would consider best friends... but, the time and energy I give to those relationships can and does cause other feelings to develop. I am learning, and slowly I might add, that those friendships end up causing confusion.
Confusion is not of God.