When good wasn't good enough

Dear sisters,

Paul exhorts his mentor Timothy in his letter recognizing the weaknesses of youth, because of the passions in our hearts. He says

"Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith. love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart." 2 Timothy 3:22

also the Psalmist writes,

"How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your Word!" Psalms 119:9

I have a confession to make to you all. All of my life I have concentrated on being the best. I felt so grateful because of the sacrifice that my LOVING SAVIOR Jesus Christ had made for me, and forever indebted myself to him. I wanted nothing else than to be indentured to him. Do you know what an indentured servant is?

Well,
An indentured servant is a slave that has been set free. They have already paid all of their debt to the master or they have been forgive their debt, and so they are set free to go. They no longer owe him anything. But this slave, for some reason, decides that he wants to continue on with his master. He (or she) chooses (of their own free will) to continue in the service of his or her master, and "indentures" him or herself to the master. This means that they are giving back the keys to him to work for him forever.

An indentured servant becomes like another member of the household. Perhaps this slave chose this life because they did not have anyone, perhaps it was because of a deep gratitude or love for the family.

Well, There was nothing I wanted more than to belong to my King> he was my best friend. I could cry and Jesus would hold me, and I could laugh for no reason, and Jesus didn't make fun of me. Jesus understood my jokes, listened when no one else would, and even shared letters, dinners and desserts with me, as well as beautiful nature and conversations.

He is the most romantic that I could ever meet, and I cherish His company more than anything.

Yet he is so ilusive and mysterious. I go looking for him sometimes and cannot find him. He keeps my interest in a crazy way, and when I least expect it surprises me with special gifts.

There is just NO ONE good enough to replace him. and I have quickly realized that all my intentions to love him, all my desire to give to him, was just never good enough. I could never give him enough,and I have broken things that I have promised him. Why, I am so enthralled and so delighted,

My friends, This God does not judge me, has not cast me away. I am not worthy of His love. He is my romantic lover and I have hurt him. Yet< He still loves me!!!

HE loves me and he is good!!!!! OUR GOOD CAN NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH!

But He... EL SHADDAI... MIGHTY GOD... PROTECTOR . . . HeALER . . . FRIEND . . .

He is GOOD... HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO IS GOOD!!!

The most glorious experience you could ever have, you would find in my LOVER. He is not double minded like mankind. He will not leave you ever, even though He knows all about you. Run to Him and you will never be disappointed.

Other men will never satisfy you the way He does, and as you seek him, He will bring you into the right relationships with man. He does want you to be happy and fulfilled, and He wants to know you profoundly. He waits for you to discover Him.