Chasing God…A Heartcry

Truly,

My desire is after God's heart, to have His love unconditionally surround me, to know that He has purified my heart that He is pleased with me.

and SO OFTEN I FAIL.  I fail to meet His standards and then it dawns on me how ridiculous it is to think that I am going to meet His standards? ha.  I could laugh at the thought of it.  Being able to meet God's standard of holiness of purity???  NEVER POSSIBLE.  Although Impossible with man, although impossibly my heart breaks by my own inability to attain His standard of purity, He has cleansed and called me pure before the Father in Heaven.

Jesus did take it all, He is pure, He did live sinless. He did live spotless. He did what I could never do…

I confess my own limitations. My failure to meet the bar. The dreams in my heart are impossible if not for Him. I confess that I need Him so much, every hour.

Jesus, please cleanse me and make me white at snow. Make me pure before you. My desire is to glorify the Father, to please Him. I'm like an 8 yr old child, smilingly coming before her Papa with a crayon colored picture of her family and presenting it like prized possession to Him, asking him to accept the gift that I made with everything I had just for him. Papa takes this and holds it to his heart like a prized possession, pleased with my offering.

I offer you my life, Father, as it is, with all its imperfections. I give it my VERY BEST. my VERY BEST for you. I want nothing else like I want you. In everything….in everything.

Whether I come with tears or laughter, let these be tears that honor you, that were shed in the earnestness of my heart after you, or laughter due to joy in You at Your hand.

You alone are worthy Abba.